Color Blindness

I thought maybe it’s just me, and then maybe it isn’t.

The view of that sunset means a lot. Every detail of that event, even though I don’t exactly remember everything, makes up for all those months I missed and all those time I wasted. Just the fact that I am watching the sunset with some of the most valuable people in my life is the only thing I can hold on to. I was happy I am watching the sunset with them, and seeing the sunset on the same perspective and time,  as it disappeared and passed below the horizon. For many, it’s nothing. But for me, It is one of the best moments in my life.

I was always alone and I was used to it. And yes, I tend to cry a lot, maybe more often than little kids do. I usually fall down on my knees, and lament my thoughtless acts, as tears stream down my cheeks. I often pull myself down, and even let others hurt me. I was taught not to fight back even I if I’m beaten. I grew up without knowing how to interact with others. I always try to fit in… I just can’t. I know that I lack self-esteem, and to think that even though I knew about it, I can’t seem to find a remedy. I always try to laugh a lot and make the most out of everything, to the extent that it can almost drive me insane. Or maybe I really am crazy, and maybe I just can’t accept it. Surely that’s who I  ‘was’, maybe even ‘now’, but surely not ‘will be’.

It’s a fact about me that most people cannot see.

I sometimes even question myself, like those people who believe in a possibility that there’s a glitch in their brain, that maybe I really am different. Maybe I just don’t see the world the way most people do, I once thought.

And now, here I am again, doing the same thing I once said I won’t do anymore. Was it once? Or more than that? I forgot. Sorry, I can’t help it.

Now I know, I really don’t see the world the way most people do, both figuratively and literally speaking. And that sunset… I never saw them the way those people did. And it’s really depressing. What’s worst is- it seems like I will never ever see the world as it is.

I am fortunate I am not blind, but still… I can’t seem to understand, of all people, why am I me and not somebody else? I hate myself, but I keep on living life with the belief that something is waiting for me out there, that there’s a future worth living for. I’m really having a hard time now. But I am still living, and I’m glad.

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Within three seconds (for each picture), answer the following…

Color vision deficient people have a tendency to better night vision and, in some situations, they can perceive variations in luminosity that color-sighted people could not. Only color blind people can actually read what is written in the picture below… That means, if you fail the test, you probably have the full range of color sensitivity that is attributed to color-sighted people.

What does it say?

Guess what? I can read it… And it says “NO”…

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Which one is it?

Now, try and find the image of a dog, a boat, a balloon, or a car on the picture below…

What do you see?

Want to know what image I see? I see nothing…

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Reference:

http://www.archimedes-lab.org/colorblindnesstest.html

http://colorvisiontesting.com/online%20test.htm

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